Felicia Chan, Period 2, 12/11/20, Day A

Felicia Chan 

12/11/20

Period 2

Modern Mythology 

Balance, the element we all so strive to maintain but instead fall completely into the possession of its enemy, chaos. The word rolls off the tongue so effortlessly, and yet I find myself stuttering and struggling to uphold the meaning of this simple 2 syllable term. 

With only so many hours in a day, I find myself wanting more time. Like all high school seniors, it is that time of year where college deadlines are approaching. As every minute and every second count down, I feel as if I am racing against the ticking of a bomb patiently waiting to burst. This bomb that I am competing with is myself. Though it is realistically impossible to race against yourself, I find myself constantly trying to prevent the stress and tensions from winning within me. From taking care of home responsibilities, attending classes, and completing school assignments, my to-do list is exponentially growing, that my efforts to check off most of the tasks seem to fail. As I try to catch up with school work to make time for myself to work on my supplemental essays, the sun has already set and the city has turned quiet. 

My focus on responsibilities has consumed me to the point where I have grown distant from my family and taking care of myself. The more I attempt to “balance” my schedule, the more I am digging myself deeper into the hole of chaos. As I forced my body to go beyond its capability, I am now feeling the side effects of being physically, mentally, and spiritually exhausted. Thus, recently I have been reconsidering the efficiency of the method I was using to maintain balance. My new goal is to weigh out the time I am dedicating to school and colleges, along with finding time to focus on healing myself.  

So far, I believe I had made good progress in restoring balance in my life. I am no longer pushing my body to stay up to finish tasks until I am exhausted, eating improper meals, and neglecting self-care. I have resumed social interactions with my family and friends via messaging and video chatting, which have positively improved my mental health. I have also managed to find time to spend on physical activities such as playing volleyball and walking outside. My sleeping schedule, on the other hand, is still in the process of fixing, but we are getting there soon, hopefully.

With the world being negatively impacted by Covid-19, many are working together to restore what has been lost. The trend of balance has given rise to counteract the negativity that the pandemic has brought upon us. As we are unable to have in-person interactions, our digital world has allowed society to connect and share positivity. Social media are used as platforms to bring awareness of how to overcome new obstacles that have emerged from this pandemic. From Instagram posts to viral Tik-Tok videos, people all over the world are sharing part of their lives to restore happiness to humanity again. The optimistic aura the world has created in such dark times has encouraged me to continue finding balance within myself.