George Baslous, Period 5, 4/27/21, Day B

At this current point in time, what specific goal(s) do you have for yourself? Why?

In my previous blog, I mentioned how I was using different methods to fix my sleep schedule, and how I needed to stop procrastinating and leaving all of my work until the last minute. Currently, I am still struggling with solving my issue with procrastination and it has taken a toll on me mentally. I've always felt like if I start assignments that are due the night before they're due, it'll only take me that one night to do it. For instance, if I have a paper due at 11:59 and I start it at 10:00, the longest it will take me to do the paper is two hours. Although this is true, the impact that it has on me is much worse and I never really realized it until now. When I procrastinate, I'm not only delaying my the stress of doing the assignment, but the stress has a snowball effect, and by the time I start doing the work, it's almost unbearable and I end up not being able to deal with it and don't finish the assignment to the best of my ability, or sometimes I don't even do the assignment. This is obviously a big issue and if I don't work hard to stop it now, the consequences will be much worse in the future, especially since I am hoping to pursue a career in medicine.

How do you demonstrate resilience towards achieving this goal? (or these goals?)

Around two months ago I started working early in the morning at 5:00am. I wouldn't say this was my way of fixing my sleep schedule, but since I knew I had something important to wake up to in the morning, I ended up forcing myself to wake up early and since I woke up so early, I ended up wearing myself out throughout the day and sleeping earlier than I was used to. In terms of my conflicts with procrastination, I can honestly and confidently say that it has only gotten worse. In the past, even if I saved work until the last moment, I would at least submit it, but now if I don't feel like I've given myself enough time to do the work, I find myself not being able to start because I'm worried I'll fail. I guess this blog is moreso a 'cry for help' because I feel like I'm at a point where it's hard to decrease the amount of procrastination. I guess maybe I could get a calendar or something similar for my room and start physically writing out due dates for everything so I can visualize it better.

How does the world around you affect your perception of this goal? (or these goals?)

I feel like when people talk about procrastination, they make it seem like a competition of who is the worse procrastinator and at some point it just seems like everyone will end up making a habit out of procrastination. Especially since I feel like my procrastination has gotten so bad, I don't feel comfortable talking about it because it makes me seem extremely lazy and I don't want to be portrayed in that way. Also, since I've been getting stressed about avoiding due dates, I started going out with friends more so I could focus on something other than the stress, and since they hang out a lot, I feel as though they're doing the same thing as me even though they probably just get their work done early on.