Michille Zhang, 3/23/21, PD 8, Day C

Michille Zhang
PD 8
3/23/21 
Day C

At this current point in time, what specific goal(s) do you have for yourself? Why?

I’ve found myself very anxious and very stressed due to the upcoming college decisions, and I’ve tended to push or avoid topics pertaining to college. Although it’s pointless to worry about a subject I cannot really control and I’ve already tried to the best of my ability, I still find myself worrying about it whenever I get the chance. My goal as of now is to find a way to deal with my stress/anxiety and get more organized. I’ve found myself getting a little lazy with logging all my assignments into my calendar, and I sometimes would forget about particular assignments or projects until it’s last minute. I feel like I haven’t been able to exercise my full effort into a lot of my school work. I want to work on getting more organized and find some time to start incorporating some time to study for the upcoming AP exams. 

How do you demonstrate resilience towards achieving this goal? (or these goals?)

Although I’ve been trying to distract myself from college decisions, I feel like I couldn't keep avoiding it forever. I decided to start getting organized with all the colleges that’ve already accepted me into their school. I’ve begun listing each of the colleges and their attributes, like their location and the amount of aid they provided. I also began trying to figure out which school I wanted to go to in case none of my top schools extended an offer. I’ve been preparing for the worst, as I don’t want to be too disappointed when the decisions come out. I’ve also been trying to get more organized by putting in some time at night to try and list everything I could for upcoming assignments or huge projects. By doing so I can map out everything I am able to do in a single day, without cramming too much work and procrastinating work for the next. I’m helping out with my family business and I almost immediately go to work after remote learning ends, so I don’t have a lot of time on my hands in the day to work. By the end of the night, I’m already really tired, so I feel like planning ahead on what I need to do will help ease that stress a little, and help me put out better content in my homework.
 

How does the world around you affect your perception of this goal? (or these goals?)

Watching all my friends or acquaintances getting into their colleges and having already made the decisions makes me a little more anxious about my own future. My parents also have been pressuring me, constantly asking about the decisions which have been of no help to my anxiety. I’ve been able to find some comfort in playing games and talking to some of my friends. I was able to narrow down some of the colleges I could possibly attend. My friends and I have planned on going to college together, so that also alleviates some of the stress of going to college alone.