Amanda Lee, Period 2, 04/16/21, Day A

 

• At this current point in time, what specific goal(s) do you have for yourself? Why
• How do you demonstrate resilience towards achieving this goal? (or these goals?)
• How does the world around you affect your perception of this goal? (or these goals?)

1.  After looking back on the past four years of high school, I've learned a lot of things about friendships, family, school, college, relationships, and myself. My main goal for the time I have remaining at Tech is finally to enjoy the people I've surrounded myself with. Whether it be my boyfriend whom I've been with for five years or girls who were mean to me, I want to feel secure in my relationships with others. Silly high school dramas and fights have little to no meaning. I don't understand why people place so much emphasis on them. My goal is now to prepare myself for the changes that are right around the corner. While I am nervous for college, I have a better understanding of how relationships work. No matter who a person is or what they say or think about you, it's important to have a strong foundation in yourself rather than letting people's words get to you.

2. I've honestly been stressing a lot this week because I quit my job and I'm getting pounded with schoolwork, but I finally feel at peace with my mental health. Things like school and work attack me with stress from the outside, but I feel comfortable inside my own brain for the first time in a while. Climbing the mental health ladder isn't just lighting a candle and taking a bath - it's been a long and draining process over the past 6 months. To make the most out of the Summer and relationships with the people I have, I have been trying to look at everything in a positive light. With less than two months left at Staten Island Tech, I am realizing that every single person in the Class of 2021 has something unique and special about them, even if I have never talked to that person for more than a few minutes. When the sun is out, I try to get out as much as I can. Believe it or not, the Vitamins the sun radiates helps your mental being a lot. To achieve any goal, we must think positively and focus on out mental states first.

3. Like I mentioned before, worldly things may attack me from the outside, but as long as I am mentally secure inside my own brain I can handle it. During my Major Depressive Episode in January and February, I slacked on schoolwork like I have never did before, and I am still feeling the effects of my missing assignments from something that occurred MONTHS ago. Luckily, I've been making up assignments and trying to lower my anxiety by completing something day by day. The world is a scary place, but you should never let it affect you to the point where you aren't comfortable in your own body or brain.