Eddie Chi, Period 2, 4/5/21, Day A

At this current point in time, what specific goal(s) do you have for yourself? Why?

We are nearing the end of the school year with only 3 months left and I feel my motivation slipping away from me. Days feel like they are getting slower, and I just feel more bored and tired. The fact that I am missing out on my senior year just adds to how sad the situation is. Currently, I'm afraid that I will lose all my motivation and I won't be able to recover in time to do well on my APs or in college. Right now, my goal would be to break away from senioritis and regain that motivation. I would also like to focus on increasing my grades and maintaining a solid average to end off my high school career. Lastly, I would want to focus on my mental health and my sleep schedule.

How do you demonstrate resilience towards achieving this goal? (or these goals?)

There are many ways that I can demonstrate resilience towards this goal. First, I can start sleeping at a reasonable time again (around 11-12). Then I can start catching up on my homework and start doing them ahead of time so they do not pile up. I can also start studying for my AP tests with practice tests and doing books when I have free time. However, doing all this immediately would instantly cause more stress, hurting my mental health. To find the balance and make sure I can achieve all my goals, I will have to start out slowly and make sure I make time available. My wellbeing is important to my success in classes and it will be essential to my journey in retaining my motivation.

How does the world around you affect your perception of this goal? (or these goals?)

The world has definitely affected my perception of this goal. Covid-19 has scared my family and I am unable to do anything that could remind me about normal life. One thing that is affecting me right now, is how I can't go back to school. I'm missing out on going to classes, seeing my friends, and playing volleyball again. These would have been great ways to release stress. People all around me are able to experience this daily and I'm just stuck at home. Yet, Covid also affects my motivation. People aren't expected to perform at their best during this pandemic and it makes me feel like this year is somewhat of a gap year. People are expecting less and it just gives me an excuse to be lazy. I'll definitely have to start regaining my motivation and break away from this mentality that I can slack off. Also since vaccines are rolling out to my age group, I might be able to have more freedom and finally get back to somewhat of a normal life.